Song of the moment:"Santeria" by Sublime
I am feeling: Somewhat Shitty


Yeah. . . . I was having a good day today, actualy.. a VERY good day, until I returned the call that Isaac sent me. He was at Sean's birthday party and he was inside or something, eating with everyone else. It was really loud for some reason, since everyone was talking or whatever. Isaac asks me if I wanted to talk to Sean and wish him a happy birthday, so I said,"sure". It was really confusing, I could hardly hear them and he gives the phone to some guy. I was like, "is this Sean?" the guy was all, "no, this is Isaac" I replied, "Oh... okay" [remember that the background noise was very very loud and chaotic through the phone, so I could even barely hear the voice of the person speaking]. Then, that guy says something like, "You know what, Mil? You have some like... wierd Filipino accent. You're not worth talking to." and hangs up on me. My reaction was pretty much just denial. I knew Isaac wouldn't say that... he's not like that. But when I did start thinking for a tiny moment that it was him, I almost cried.

I walk back inside the arcade... back to Lorraine, Stephanie and Christina. They ask me what's wrong, and I tell them what happened. Lorraine and Stephanie, like the good friends that they are, try to cheer me up. When they called me back, I was like, "Ugh... I don't want to talk to them. I feel shitty enough as it is, I don't want to cry in public." So Lorraine went outside with my cell phone and answers it. She tells whoever was on the other line that I was in the bathroom, and that was that.

About a half an hour or so later, Isaac sent me a text message. Hey Mil. Sorry about George. Sean says hela thx for sayin happy B-day, and everyone says HI!! THX MIL ttyl. baibai I love Isaac. "Sorry about George"? Yeah, everyone's sorry about George. *rolls eyes* Whatever. Sean's cool too, and I should smack myself for thinking that the guy who talked to me was him. I love Sean, too.

Heh. That conversation really ruined my day, though. I was really hyper and was my normal wierd, "never ending hoppy energizer bunny-thing" mood. Lorra and Steph tried their best cheering me up, which I appreciate. Christina just rolls her eyes like the bitch she is. lol.. she's downstairs right now, talking to her boyfriend from San Diego on my freakin' cell phone. After I kind of got over it, I started freestyling again on PIU, practicing my pop and lock. Wheee... got 5 dollars from one of the tourisits. ^^;;

I can't believe that I ever felt such deep feelings for George. He's just like Chris.. aka Tajiri.. he can be nice and a great friend one minute, and the next, just turn into a PMSing, depressed little hypocrite. Even if I did have a Filipino accent that that's bad, then what kind of a diss is that? I was born in the Philippines, and I'm mother fucking proud of that. But yeah, I can't even talk in Tagalog right... according to Christina. She's always dissing me, too. How I sound so "white" when I try to talk to her in Tagalog. What the hell AM I? I talk FOB in English, and talk 'white' in Tagalog? What in the green hell.

On the brighter side, I would like to thank all of my good friends that tried cheering me up... and somewhat, succeeded. Good friends like Lorraine, Stephanie, Miyu and Jaimee. I don't think giving me a non-virgin margarita really counts, like what Danny did earlier... it just made me almost throw up. o_O;;

moving along.....

I was telling Stephanie how she should pursue into another level with her singing. She only sings when no one is talking to her, or paying attention to her and that's when I heard her AMAZING voice. I mean, I hear that "all" Filipinos have good singing voices, but hers tops the rest. I'm not even bluffing. The problem is, she is way too shy to sing in front of people when they're directly looking at her. I told her that when I die, my Will is going to specifically say that she will HAVE to at least try out anything that involves singing or else I would have HER killed, decapitated and burned. =) I am so confident that if she sings in front of a representative of a record company, that she will instantly get a record deal. That's how good she is.. she's way better than all of the girls in that stupid American Idol thing, but the only problem that she has is getting over her fear of singing in front of people, other than her own family.

Anywho.. I have to get back to the people that IMed me instead of pushing them out of my life, like I've done so many times in the past whenever I'm down. I need to hide my inner feelings once more, like what I always do.